Changes

Well, in the forever it's been since I've last blogged a lot has changed in my life.  Both good and bad.  More good than bad (which I'm so blessed for) but I do wish I could improve myself.  Which I will.  It'll just take time.  Alright I'm rambling...what's new?  haha.

I now have a boyfriend.  Or I'm dating someone.  Or whatever it's called nowadays.  I just say boyfriend, but he thinks it's kind of childish and doesn't like that.  So I'm not quite sure what to call him.  Any ideas?  Anyway, he's someone I would have never seen myself dating had you asked me 5 years ago.  Even 1 year ago I wouldn't have see myself dating him.  Not because of anyway that he acts in life, but b/c of the color of his skin.  Not that I'm being discriminatory.  I'm not.  I'm just from a super small all-white town.  But this past summer I went to live in Houston with my brother's family for 8 weeks and through work I met this incredible guy.  When I went back to visit in December we took our friendship to the next level.  Yeah it's gonna be hard b/c I'm still at school in NC and he's in TX.  But we'll work it out if it's meant to be and we actually try.  He's simply amazing to me.  Better than I ever dreamed were possible.  He makes me feel beautiful and desired.  And it's an incredible feeling.  He's so sweet and I just never imagined anyone feeling this way about me.  Yes, our relationship is new so that stuff may wear off eventually but I sure hope that it doesn't.  Hopefully it grows as we get to know one another better.

I'll add more later...I'm getting distracted. 

Why am I always 'the nice girl'?  I'm fine with waiting on God's timing, I really am.  I am in no hurry to be in a relationship.  So why does it bother me to be called 'the nice girl'?  Not that it offends me b/c I'm glad that others find me nice...that's how I want to be seen.  Ok...so this whole blog stems off of a conversation that I just had with a former crush...and by former I mean like a 7th grade crush...so it's been awhile.  I introduced this guy (when he was my crush) to my friends at church camp one year...and wouldn't ya know? he fell for one of my friends!  Isn't that what always happens?  And even though that was more than 6 years ago, he still has really strong feelings for her, which is amazing!  I believe that she has feelings for him, too, but she just hides them.  But, when we were talking about the two of them, he goes, "I miss you too, though....you were always so nice."  HELLO?  If I am so nice, why doesn't any guy want me?  Ok...so I know that's not true, and I honestly don't even care a whole lot...I guess that I just don't understand.  I'm not even sure if this blog makes sense, it's just a bunch of rambling made by my tired mind.  Let me know if you have any suggestions. 

I hope that everyone is having an amazing week!

Love Always and God Bless -- Beth

Hey!  I haven't updated in a really long time, so even though this is going to be short I decided to go ahead and write.  Nothing much is up now...just school and work.  Luckily, though, I am finished with school in a week and two days!  Yay!  Then who knows what I'm doing this summer.  I'm gonna try to get a job at a pharmacy...I'm going job hunting tomorrow.  Woohoo!!    Ok..that's it for now...maybe more later.

Oh, and I went to Agape this past weekend for the first time and it was AWESOME!